The cruel reality about losing my mother is that right after her death was when I needed her the most.
Teeyah, my super cheerful mother, died just two days after turning 60.
Over the years, she endured excruciating pain but fought through like a champion, until Monday (06/10/2019) when this lone light in my life was blown off by the winds of death, leaving a vacancy that will NEVER, EVER be filled:
- Each year, during my birthday, Teeyah would sing happy birthday to me, regardless of her deteriorating health—cheering my heart to no end. Her HappyBirthdaySong + special birthday prayers and best wishes made my special day a memorable one. No wonder I always longed for her call on such days.
- Distance—though she was all the way in Abidjan, and me, in Gaithersburg, Teeyah was always with me. She went to work with me each day, conversing with me throughout my journey to work. It was a self-offered full-time job that she took on with exceeding passion.
- She would call me at noon every day of my workweek to check on me, keeping me engaged in hearty conversations. On my day off, she would wait until 1:00PM to call me and stay connected with me throughout the afternoon.
These are only a few reasons why losing Teeyah has exposed me to a grief marathon: weeping for hours (still working on that), battling reduced appetite and recurring sleepless nights, while nursing multiple panic attacks and then going back to feeling numb, again.
The truth is, even when I think I am learning to live with this irreplaceable loss, grief suddenly pops up and mercilessly bites me, leaving me defenseless.
Our mother-daughter bond was irrationally beautiful. We were friends and fans of each other. Oh Teeyah, without you, my life will NEVER be what it was.
But then again, The Most High has always known best and always does what’s best. Who am I to doubt His plans?
Friends, please join me in praying for Allah’s bountiful mercies on my mom. Ya’Allah, please forgive my mom’s shortcomings and grant her the highest level of al Jannat. Aameenayarabi
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